A Trip to the Past

So, lately I've been searching for something, but I don't know what it is and I don't know where it is. I know it's a feeling and I can find it somewhere in the past. Perhaps I want my innocence back, a life with no mistakes in it. Or it could simply be I want to relive my childhood with all my siblings as the way they were and Awana as the way it was. I believe the later. There are a few things that give me this feeling and memories that remind me of this feeling. One thing is certain music. The old DC Talk CD's and Five Iron Frenzy songs; all the music my siblings used to listen to. The old brown van and the old kitchen floor did (which is why I made such a fuss about it). A certain game that I can only remember one card of and how I hated it is one of the memories. The book, Heidi. The old vacuum (I will tell you the story some other time). Swinging. The teeter totter is another memory. Sneaking around the house at night. Pictures don't give me the feeling but do make me cry sometimes. And there are lots of others I just can't think of right now. For about two years now I've been living with this sneaky feeling. It's only just now that I decided to make an adventure out of it and go on a quest to find it.